YES - this is what I needed. A life I didn't want to escape from. For years, I dreamed of running away - of just disappearing. That's how I dealt with challenges - I tried running, loud music, lots of things - but when I finally tried alcohol - hell yeah, it worked. Then, I tried to stop drinking - and, well, those things that made me want to drink? They came back -until I worked on them. With help. A sponsor - a group of men who were struggling, too. Now, I live a life I don't want or need to escape from - no need to drink. I used to think "the promises" were a bunch of crap - but they did, in fact, materialize!