YES - a way to escape. When we feel trapped, our body craves release - and, if we can't find true physical freedom, we may find temporary escapes - and, an emotional outlet. This allows us to survive - but, as you note, living in survival mode is not the best long-term strategy - there are moments of fun or even joy, but also ... those moments end and we are back where we started. Thank you for sharing your story and journey.