100% - I feel this - I used to think I "wasn't hurting anyone" with drinking. Off to bed my daughter would go - house would be quiet, and I'd go to the cabinet in my space upstairs (my glass had already been placed on the counter) - alone, a dark room, a tv playing something - perfection, I thought. And I also thought I was being a good dad, engaged - and that alcohol gave me that - the calm to get through the shit days - instead, alcohol was giving me the shit days, taking me away from my family. I was hurting myself AND the people closest to me. Thank you for sharing this - and for one more reminder about why I don't drink today.